So today is my 34th birthday. Nothing special about that. I still have a regular work day and we won’t do any kind of special celebration until the weekend. However, today, I am going to try something that I’ve been wanting to do for a while. I am going to start a blog. I don’t even know if I have enough to say on a regular basis but I’m going to give it a go.
I’ve been motivated by a couple of friends. My fried, Robin started one a few weeks ago, and it is so much fun to read. My friend/nephew (in-law), Dave Cummings, started one about life as a 2nd grade teacher, and it is so interesting to read his perspective on things. I’m not trying to be a copycat here, but I’ve been wanting to blog about my life as a worship leader/pastor/teacher/husband/dad. Will anyone read it? I don’t know, but it’s a way to get some things off my chest.
I’ve blogged a few devotionals in the past, but this time I want it to be more about dealing with life and ministry and everything else that goes along with that.
For the past few months I’ve been going through a lot of changes. I don’t know if it’s the working of God or just my own quirks, but I’ve been taking a step back and examining why I do what I do. Why am I a worship pastor? Why do I do the things I do as a worship pastor? Are the things I’m doing as a worship pastor pleasing to God? I guess you could sum it all up by saying that I’m tired of “church” as usual.
If all I’m doing as a worship pastor is singing songs just because that’s the way we’ve always done things in church then there are many other venues I could find to sing and to be a musician. As a worship pastor (and as a worshiper for that matter) I was never called to sing songs. I was never called to be a professional musician. I was called to love God and bring others to a place of loving God. I’ve been called to take people up the mountain of God, not to stay the same. I’ve been doing this long enough that I could pick songs to get people excited. I could pull out just the right song to tug on the heart strings. But what good would that be. That’s not leadership, that’s manipulation.
I want people to love God because they want to love God. I want people to realize that they have been redeemed from the curse of sin. I want the broken to experience the healing power of Jesus Christ, and I want those that are seeking for answers to realize that those answers can be found in Jesus. That’s why I want to lead worship. That’s why I want to be in ministry.
So my goal is to be different than I was at 33. Above anything else I want people to say that Russell Henderson is a worshiper and a lover of Jesus Christ. I want 34 to be a time of new beginnings. I’ve been praying for a home for 4 years. I don’t know if that will happen this year, but I’m going to love God anyway. There’s a lot of things that I’ve been hoping to be different for a long time. Whether those things change this year or not is for God to decide. But I will trust that His ways are perfect, and I will worship Him anyway.
So stay tuned. It’s still early in the morning, so who knows what will happen today. TTYL.
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